Humanly things I don't appreciate enough or understand at all.

Yesterday I started to wonder at many things, in fact unnecessary things.
I just realized since we are the son of Adam and Eve the first sinners in this world (my religion of course), there are many humanly things that evolve around me that I just don't understand.
So I would like to get this off my chest.

1. Being heavily in debt to someone - This thing really annoys me, I have this heavy burden that I am heavily in debt with my significant other. Me as a person, if I do anything nice for you I do not instantly expect that you will do something for me in return. As a religious person I always say that God will be happy with my work and that he will give me blessings, so no I don't expect good deeds from the person I helped. Meanwhile the other person doing something good for you is another story, my boyfriend assured me that mentally stable people here in the city expect something in return when they contributed their time on someone and that I should be always aware of that. 
2. Carrying others burden because they are blood related - The title alone makes me frustrated. My parents believed and understands that when their family friends or other people do something good for anyone of us in the family all the family have to take the responsibility of being in debt to that person/family. Even if you literally did not have anything to do with it you are still obliged to take a part because family share-share alike right? NOT! This I can't avoid but I just want to let people know that I absolutely HATE this feeling and yes hate is a strong word so there you go.
3. Telling the shocking truth to the stranger you don't even know or like - I have this mannerism that when I don't like you or don't care about you I just ignore you or nonetheless don't tell you what I think. If however I care about you then I would tell you the truth, take for example if I see a broccoli on your teeth I would whisper it to you or if you sing crap I would tell you to take lessons etc. BUT if you are a complete stranger to me I would NEVER open up to you just to tell you what you need to improve on or what I think of you. Even if I just want to punch you in that instant moment I would never show you that you affected me at all. If you catch me on my bad day (if you are a stranger to me) I will make you experience shock and aggression that you have never seen before because I am quite feisty. Since a stranger is nothing more than a stranger to me then I would not be considerate towards what that person is feeling on my worst day.
4. Why I can't adjust myself when people expect me to show feelings - Since I was a disturb child with no recollections of happy memories during my childhood years, I literally hate the fact that I have to show feelings of fear, regret, sadness and other emotions that can portray me as weakling. Yes I know that normal people with high emotional intelligence portray them as well but I just really don't want to show people (even the ones I care for) that I was affected by whatever they did. However I do like showing and expressing happiness, enjoying, ignorance, confuse and other positive emotions that I consider. Yes I do hide behind a mask but I believe everyone else does as well, some are just not as competent as others.
5. The one who listen to peoples problem - Seriously everyone who is close to me put all their problems to me. Worst my significant other do it to me the most. IF he is not liking the progress of the telephone conversation he criticize me and point out the obvious faults (that I already know of) in me. My parents have that tendency as well, especially mom. Mom does it during my critical time like e.g. When I am about to go to uni at 8am in the morning to take an exam, mom decides to talk to me about our financial situation and what we could possibly lose soon. I really believe that this is really unhealthy, since I have no one to confide in anymore and even if I did I never told anyone my problems because I just don't have the guts to in my head 'They don't need this crap because they have other crap to worry about.' However no one thinks like that when it comes to me and instead gives me more problems to think about.
   My boyfriend would tell me 'my older sister doesn't need this crap, she doesn't need to deal with my problems she has other important things that she needs to be worrying about.' Yet he doesn't think like that for me even if he knows my current family's financial situation. 
6. Why it sometimes feel like someone appear so great that you feel annoyed and jealous - What do I mean by these. Having Asian parents who are just absolutely naiive about everything, makes me really annoyed at the fact that when they are describing someone's daughter/son they make it appear like they are so great. Like take for example my mom's friends whose daughter is studying at a university in Melbourne. Our conversation went like this:
   
   Me: Mom where is her [Insert mom's friends name] eldest daughter. I have never seen her around lately. I thought she have two daughters.
   Mom: Well she is in Melbourne studying there, shes nearly finished and she's really doing well there now. Apparently when she was living at their house she wasn't doing so well but now she's away from home she is getting good marks and is currently doing master's degree with another extra studies on the side because she's aspiring to be an accountant. She must be really intelligent. Also she is really independent which is really good because she did everything by herself, like her moving to Melbourne and just living at her own, doing her own chores etc... She works part time there in Melbourne as well, and time to time she gives money to her parents. (The next thing I know was that I was hearing blah blah blah from my mom, who is talking someone else's daughter up).
   I think their home environment is not good because her second daughter [inserts mom's family friends second daughters name] doesn't study as well because she goes off to stratonere plaza and to ganoral city with friends after school finishes.
   Young sis: No she does study time to time mom, she might have just wanted a break after a long hard day
   Mom: No I don't think that is it. I think that she can't study well in her house because of their family arrangements and all that.
   Me: Okay mom it is the same with us how we can't study in this house. What university does her eldest go to?
   Mom: Somewhere in Melbourne and shes doing very good there the mom said ... [I cut her off]
   Me: Yeah mom I heard you, what university? That is like the most important thing.
   Dad: No its not! What difference does it make if you go to the best university but does not get good grades to someone who goes to a not so well university but get the best marks?
   Me: Uh dad I was just about to say that university is like the most important information, I didn't say that university names are the most important thing in here.
   Dad: But you see what I mean university names does not matter if you are not doing so well. What matters the most is that you are getting the highest possible marks no matter which university you do your studies at.
   Me: Okay dad. So mom what university does she goes to?
   Mom: I don't know but what does it matter she's doing really well. I am sure her parents are so proud of her.
   Me: -
   
   So in that conversation pretty much my dad who is so negativie and criticise everything I say probably main aim was for me to realise that I am not doing so well in university and that it doesnt matter if my XXX university is one of the top university in the world but what matter is that I get good marks. Another reason for him cutting me up like that was probably because I told my mom that her three daughters can't study well in this house.Well I am sorry to say this but because you produced me so getting the best mark out of all these geniuses in my university is impossible, also because I am so straightforward when I am pissed off so something what hurts you has to be said to sink in, so sorry to disappoint you.
   My mom's motive could be either two things the first one would be her not being aware about the fact that she seems like she is talking up her friends daughter. Second is could be that she is telling me that I pretty much sucks in my university studies and that I am so dependable on them.
   Afer that conversation I pretty much just wanted to tell her that I actually have been wanting to move out of the house as well. Since I honestly do beleive that I will be mentally sane this year if I live elsewhere. Since my mom is sometimes clueless about these things, so she didn't know that what she was doing was actually kinda hurting me in a sense. I mean its not really my fault how I can't move out of this house. Partially its my parents who does not even want me to move away also partly my fault for not saving/not having a job to afford living independently.
   Once I graduate and find a decent job, I promise to myself that I will save up and move out of the house. I will get my apartment somewhere close to the city (near XXX university as well if possible) so that I can take my sister away from that house time to time. I am not encouraging them to live with me but I am just helping them to stay sane by goin out of that house.
   
   As anyone can tell my house right now is not the best place to live and study at the same time.

As I said before I really don't understand why it is like this. Is it because people think that I have no problems in the world? Is this the consequences of looking unbreakable or problem-less?

I know that I always wear a mask where I pretend to be in a fine happy condition but inside I know I am going crazy, and lately I have been having more intense fairytale daydreams that I wish came true. So what do these daydreams signify, isn't obvious already that I just want to get away from this realistic bullcrap and go to my la la land. Seriously if I can go to another galaxy with no fuss or risk I would go there by myself and explore what the world is like out there.