Long weekends.

Wow I can write blogs from my blackberry phone internet browser AWESOME!

Firstly I am going to begin this blog with a positive note.

Yesterday was an alright day. My sister's fund raising concert for GC was successful!
Everything run smoothly according to time.
Thank goodness its over and another thing that I am over and done with!

Good Friday was ok. Dad (as usual) was being negative towards everyone in the house.
We went to a 2pm mass, my sister sang at the choir the whole day so I was by myself and had a lot of peace.

Easter Sunday, we didn't do our normal Easter egg hunt that my mom loves to do every year just to bring up some noise.
Instead we woke up early in preparation for the concert which was later on that day.

The concert went smoothly, the program was a success. Everyone in the audience seemed to enjoy it.
Everyone was a cheering and yeah I made some mistakes on my script but managed to pull it off, everyone makes mistake. Plus my paper was so small to read!
The only downer was that my auntie and cousins were there. But its not like they did something wrong.
I know indirectly their intentions was to show off somehow.
My sisters make up was the same as everyone (when it shouldn't have been) and just plain awkwardness in dressing room. As long as they manage to make my youngest sister look good.
I know that my auntie from time to time was giving me indirect messages that she intended to do.
Its like I can see through her already, but let's hope she means well. Because my mom believe so.
I was hoping BC concerts was going to be less stressful since I don't have to see this people but turns out there is a possibility they might attend that one as well.
Yeah I have no idea why go through that effort and stigmatization.
Oh well their life.

Anyway the rest of the concert wasn't as bad as I made it out to be. Plus not like me and those relative said anything to each other.
As long as we don't say anything it all good.
I saw that I DARE guy in the concert as well, just realize that food business is his family business.
I could see him from afar, from the podium's stage to inside the cafeteria while I was talking
We didn't cross path though (thank goodness) so we didn't talk at all.
My sister thought that I DARE guy's brother was good looking hmm.
When me,MC partner and significant other was on backstage after scene 5 (where I first appeared to deliver an introduction number)
My ex came backstage randomly to say hello and ask us about particular simple things on our script manual.
It was kinda really random, my significant other thought it was suspicious and informed me of what he thought of that weird behaviour:
 
So my significant other's  explanation of that behaviour was that, my ex saw me on stage same way audience sees me and got impress with my appearance because I looked good and look sexy in my dress.
So he went back stage to get a closer look and thought to himself 'damn why did I let this one go.'
I was flattered by my significant other when he said this but I am sure my ex is over me and that is probably not what it was

My explanation is
He took drugs (again) or was high and was doing things beyond his control.
Or was completely and utterly bored and decided to take a walk.
It took nearly 3 hours to pack that place up I was so bored after the show I tell you.

When we were on GC mass at this church I started over thinking again.
Like what if this stupid hacker sent something to Miss LH about me and my friend bitching about her in a facebook message.
Why I started thinking about this?

Well it started last Thursday when I went late night shopping at Westfield.
From the corner of my eye I saw who was approaching let's call them the dancer couple.
Yeah I saw the dancer couple walk past me from the corner of my eye and I am sure that they saw me.
I pretended I didn't see them, but I noticed that as soon as they walked past.
The male in that dancer couple looked back to look at me after the female in that dancer couple said something.
What could this mean?

Well this is all I can think of:
1. Either they noticed my weight loss
2. They notice how different I look when I am not done up or dressed up (yeah not very glamorous or pretty)
3. The hacker did something or sent something to LH when they hacked into my FB and hotmail account.
So now I am over thinking again.
But when I went back this morning and activated my FB to see if LH has deleted me well she hasn't.
I even went into her page and looked at her status to see if she mentioned anything peculiar about someone like being a bitch to her.

I deleted everything like messages and stuff from that account then continued with the deactivation process.
This time I linked my hotmail account with my blackberry so that I get to keep the activation message on my blackberry instead of my inbox.
I linked all my active hotmail account unto my blackberry to see them daily and make sure that they are not hacked.
Obviously if they are hacked my phone will send me a message indicating for me to enter my password again for safety purposes because if I don't then I won't be getting any messages.
So yes I am paranoid with this things. You just can't be careless about it.

People keep telling me how it is not a big deal but how would they know?!
I pretty much have a lot of private information on those messages and email account!
People will never know the stress and pain I am experiencing unless they fill my shoes.

I don't really know what this hackers wanted with my account anyway. Another explanation is that they want to see JD's profile since they don't have it on theirs.

But as of today I had my monthly visitor and I have to say it looks odd for this month.
I have been quick to temper. My right hand is really numb and can barely move. My left calves has that hurting pain as if a hammer is banging on it.
My dad manage to piss me off so many times but thank goodness I was able to control myself to ignore it.
I wish I went out today staying too long in this house with this same people really do make crazy.
It so hard to put up with. Its like I don't hear anything good lately.
Dad borrowed my laptop so now me and my middle sibling is waiting for him to finish using it so that we can watch that show we were watching before we were disturbed.

Thank goodness tomorrow is a brand new day where I have an excuse to go out of this house.
I am so not enjoying 2010 like some people are. I really hate how thi year began for me.