I've got to stop this feeling

So yes I finally bought my Accounting:Information for decision second revised editions book so that I will be well prepared for my exam this Saturday.
But afterwards I kinda felt really annoyed at myself straight after the receipt transaction finished in XX bookshop around Towaindeng.
Things I started thinking at that very instance:

HATE THE FACT THAT:

• I don't have a job and I am a full time university student
• I quit my job in p n' p hyperdome job so that I could help my significant other's dad with his restaurant business because they don't have any good workers and the business was new. So lets just say that was the stupidest thing I have ever done.
• I am always doing too much for people and some people don't realize it!
• That I still live at home with my parents when I could be renting my own apartment
• I am involve in a relationship that I feel like I am not really happy about anymore.
• I daydream and fantasize so much that I just want the fantasies to be real
• 2010 is such a shiiett beggining and not improving at all, well for me anyway
• My significant other is being an ass towards me just few minutes ago and has been putting all the fucking stress and shieet on me.
• I depend on my significant other way too much! Before I swore to myself that I would never EVER let a guy pay for my shiiett and my reasoning for that is because I don't want to ever feel like as if I owe them something.
• My skin is still shieet
• I can't afford Bobbi Brown stuff because all my allowance goes to transportation money, books and other university related crap!
• I don't consider anyone as my best friend anymore because they are total dimwits
• My significant other influenced me to have bad vibes (e.g. swearing, thinking bitchy, becoming a bitch etc.) I mean his intentions was for me to get smarter about the real world because if I remained that nice innocent little girl he thinks I would be eaten alive here.
• No one knows the anything about how I feel
• I can't tell anyone about things that are happening to me in uni because I just can't. Everyone around me are a total assholes and idiots.
• No one seems to make me smile genuinely anymore
•  The girl I am sitting with here in Chamberllooinuise building types so hard as if she wants to smash the keyboard. Like seriously while she is typing the whole fucking 3 metres table is fucking vibrating and moving. Even when she fucking clicks the mouse it is fucking moving!
  Come on! Have mercy on the non-living things, yes you probably are in a hurry to I don't know take a shit but you don't need to take your stress on typing and clicking so hard on the computer!

Yes I am hating on 2010 it is such a shiieet year like 2007 being a shiiett year as well.
So there you go another post me being all negative and yes I tried smilling at a stranger today to see if a smile is really contagious and good for the soul, lets just say that didn't work out the way I planned it.

So here is my strategy to make things better:

1. Let my significant other know the rules I am going to set for this relationship
• I will not go to uni unless I want to or I have classes.
  Therefore Mondays, Tuesdays and sometimes Wednesday I am not going to uni to either study, eat and stay late with him in uni.
• I will let him know that from now on us seeing each other has to be at least once a week or maximum of twice a week. My reasoning for this is because I hate knowing that I am so dependent on him, I hate the fact that he pays for my food and such. If we will see each other it has to be because we are going on a date night so if he wants me to go to uni with him to check his assignment or study late with him in uni I will just have to have a stronger will power and say no to him.
• I need to inform him that the stress he puts on me all the time is not tolerable towards me anymore that is why I am choosing to spend less time with him. If I spend more time with him and him giving me his stress the usual way then I have to let him know that I will just fall out of love for him.
• Once I get a job I need to assure him that I will pay everything that I owe him and will NOT anymore accept money from him because I don't want that burden anymore.
• Let my significant other know that this new attitude of his, which slightly changed straight after getting a job in real estate as a home finder is getting in his head and giving him a bigger head. So I just need to tell him  'don't fly too high because your feet is still touching the ground in the end, so be humble.' 
2. The home situation
• They cannot put stress on me especially dad (this will be the hardest thing to change)
• When I have an exam I want no one to distract me and take my laptop away from me!
• I don't want people coming over the house when I have exams because that means I will be forced to stay in uni late night, seriously if I could sleep there I would.
• They have got to stop this emotional outburst or this emotional breakdown on me because it is not good for my mental thinking. My head is just being corrupted by negative thoughts and vibes.
3. Fantasies
• I have to always inform myself that this is reality and that is just a wish/dream
• I should NOT take funny TV show scenario too seriously even if it makes me happy
• Assure my self that daydreaming about fantasy is healthy for my sake because of these unfortunate events happening to me but I need to stop wishing for the inevitable.
4. Money matters
• FIND A JOB! DON'T BE PICKY
• Just spend on things that you need for survival such as transportation, printing and food vending machine does not count. 
• If I didn't bring my lunch or no lunch was provided STOP buying food from refrectory or vending machines. The only solution to this problem is go home and eat there!
• If you don't need a material at an important matter, DONT BUY IT!
5. Transportation
• Remind myself that I have no choice but to take it, try not find anyone that can give me a lift to uni
• I need to get out of uni so that I don't have to deal with shitty bus driver services
• If I get a job and I have savings use it on driver license lesson!
6. Hanging out with friends
• If I don't have money don't arrange a meeting with friends no matter how much you miss them
• If my money is only enough for the bus to see friend then don't feel as if I am obliged to buy a drink or food while hanging out with a friend. Feeling awkward without peeking on a food or drinking a drink OR watching friend eat or drink while chatting is all in the imagination.

So at that moment that is all I could think about. I will come back to this and edit it if I think of something to add to this. For now Ta! I got to do my accounting studies.