I am dying inside

I seriously just want to vent out the feelings I have inside!
Tomorrow at 6am which is the 6 July, Semester 1 results will be released. I know that even if I gave my best (maybe lacking a bit because I didn't have much motivation and problem at home was distracting my inspiration) somehow I feel like a failure after the entire thing. I am literally dying inside, I am fearing failure at this moment. Even today after my second interview with the second manager for subway sandwich artist job I felt like a complete failure for some big hair fat reason.

I HATE FAILING AND I AM FEELING DEFEATED ALREADY!
I REALLY HOPE I PASS! A big fat stinking ugly 4 would suffice! (7 is the highest. Although inside I wish for a better mark but from the look of it no fat chance for that). I already mentioned in my previous post how badly my mid terms and assignment went for some of my subjects but I am seriously dying inside! I hope I passed all subjects!!! I want to die right at this instant. I feel like I won't be getting sleep till 6 am!!!

ARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH %$^^Y&^%^$%#$%$^%&I^&%^$#@#$#%$^&

That is what I feel like at this moment.
I am trying to enlighten myself with funny manga comics and maybe I should start watching the Nanny season 3 but I really don't think that would help me in my state. Because I am so nervous I can't even eat the freaking cookie I wanted to eat before I sleep!
[Normal symptoms for me when I am nervous = butterflies in tummy, losing appetite, shaking tremendously, head spinning around, have an itchiness to watch, read or do something funny].

GAAH SOMEONE HELP ME! Where is my GENIE!!!!
I want my own Genie that will grant me all my wishes and take me out of this state!
GAAAH ALL these fantasies are making me go boinkers, ^$%#$%$#@$%$@$#!!!!!