This is the scenario I swore I would never allow myself to be in. I dread coming to a workshop or tutorial unprepared! It is just the worst thing for me.
Since this subject have an assignment due in 4 days I couldn't prepare for the tutorial number 3 which required us to read this journal article. So being me, embarrassed and frustrated at myself I lied about what my assigned article (about 12 pages long) was about (we were equally distributed an article to read last week to be completed for this weeks tutorial). I felt my ears hot and red and I swear my cheeks were blushing while I was lying and BS-ing my teeth. I just hope no one in my group got interested on what (I pretended to know)my assigned article is about and read it for themselves because I am screwed!
I just hope the teacher didn't read my assigned article before because then she would have gotten suspicious.
The teacher didn't look appalled or disgusted she just seemed normal after I described to my group what my article was, but then again she is a certified psychologist and about to do PhD so she could be good in displaying unwanted emotions so that she won't embarrass me.
I am so sorry again but I was using an ego-defensive mechanism so that I wouldn't let my team down. :(
When I was lying and telling my team what my assigned article was about I was completely surprise at myself as well since that I was lying to the extent that I wasn't stuttering and pausing which what I would normally do if I really did read the article. The idea flows and concepts I was thinking was so imaginative and super quick with just trying to explain it when really I only read the title. Pretty good as I think about it and to be completely honest I have no idea how this ideas and words came out of me. : |
Don't get me wrong I didn't like what I did and I will NEVER come to a workshop unprepared!
Not one of my finest moments.
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