So basic updates of my life:
- My BM did not give me the managerial position even though on March 11 at around 3:30pm he told me 'I am going to start treating you like a manager because I want you to step up for this position.'
- My new kiosk supervisor did not come from a banking background and now they expect me to train him in regards to technical matters.
- When I spoke to my BM's boss she informed me that she trust her underlings in whatever decisions they make and that if I have any queries in regards to job opportunities and career development within the organization I would require to have a chat with my previous manager and this BM.
[Yeah freaking crap! I don't even want to talk to that BM! He is a PERRA!] - Questionings of my development and blaming myself for being a silent achiever in this organization has caused me to rethink my new attitude and behavior in this organization.
- The human resource fella (nice guy), informed me that I was not able to make it to the shortlist of interview for the customer advisory role in a particular PB because one of the requirement is to be able to speak Korean. SUSTANTIVO!
- First of all why do you have to adapt to this type of clients? I know it is all about clients satisfaction. BUT why are they still in Australia not knowing how to speak English and to the extent you have to hire people who speak their language? Why don't they learn English?
When you are in an English speaking country, know the language and be one of us!
I thought they have change the immigration policy for every non-permanent residency people who wish to be on a PR?
First of all I am not being racist to Asians because I am half Asian myself and if you don't believe me I can speak, write and read intermediate Japanese! Plus English is not my first language, I migrated here in Australia on 2000 and I made sure I would be able to speak English because I know I want to live here! - I am seeing my developments and job opportunities as being limited to the extent that it is becoming extinct and I am scared for my own sake
- First of all I don't want to train my own supervisor and yet he is higher up at me. I mean he hasn't done anything to me personally BUT my own pride and ego has been crushed because I know I am more qualified than this guy and I have more experience and knowledge!
- I gave my credit card to my dad for him to use for weekly groceries because we are short in our financial, since my mom is currently looking for a new job.
- I have no savings and I can't even buy nice things for myself. I swear with this hardships I deserve to win the lotto right at this moment.
This has greatly affected me as a person that I am so demotivated in my own work and self. As much as I would hate to admit it I feel that only my university gives me a sense of security and satisfaction in my life.
I also don't want to do so much self pitying (yes I have not really poured out my feelings, and in fact I do want to cry my heart out but no I choose not to) because as a religious person I don't want to blame my own God for my misfortunes. I know that these incidents are an openings for a better opportunity even though at this moment I am walking in the dark and trying to find the doorknob of that door that will lead me to that bright light of happiness and satisfaction.
So yes that is my current updates of my life.
I guess you can say that I am making sure that I am increasing my internal locus of control. I have put stop to expecting that it is fate and it is destiny and decided that if I really want it I will work on it myself. I will just ask guidance and blessing from above.
